salam fellow bloggers. i suddenly feel like i want to blog. but what should i blog about? lemme just tell you how i feel at the moment.
its 4:30pm now i am sitting on my bed with me grey jumper on. i have yet to take a shower today because i woke up late. so i kinda stink :P i am feeling very lazy but somehow i really want to get things done and stop being lay ass me. i just do not know how. i wish someone could get strict with me and tell me what to do and i wish i had my mother infront of me now. everytime i think about going home. everytime i look at my family's status updates, pictures, their tweets, i wish i was there.
to be honest i actually could not wait to come here. but when i first arived the first thing i felt was that i want to go back home and pretend this never happened. can i do that? can i? am i allowed to just go back and never come back? or SHOULD i even think about all this? since i have nobody here the only someone i could turn to is Allah. please oh Allah help me be strong and face these nasty feelings. it really hurts. btw its really hard to not cry writing this. believe it or not my first few days here were rough. i hated moscow to the core mahn.
alright enough being emo. i have no choice but to hide it.
i want to bathe now lah. i should start anyway. i'll blog tonite inshallah. now i kinda feel relieved telling the whole world about my feelings now. thats just great-_____-
wow i feel great after blogging for the first time. teehee. see ya inshallah.
peace out. salams. take care :D
